A few years ago I picked up a book by a woman named Julian of Norwich. She lived in the 14th and 15th century in England and lived her life as an anchoress. An anchoress is a person that chooses to withdraw from the world and live a solitary, prayerful life in seclusion. Her only companion was a cat that kept the mice population at bay and she is always pictured with it. I have no doubt the cat became a dear companion in lonely life.
I have spent quite a lot of time thinking about how to write a blog post on her book, "Revelations of Divine Love", but I can never quite think of how to do it. One blog post would not do it justice . But her book has been a dear companion to me over the last few years. There are so many beautiful revelations of God's enduring love for each one of us and for the world. And her writing opened my eyes anew to the tender, hopeful, fearless God I had forgotten about. I hope I get to meet her one day and tell her.
I have returned to one of Julian's prayers recently. I prayed this prayer daily for at least a year. It was written nearly 700 years ago and yet it is profoundly relevant to my own walk with God. I love that God is so steadfast that I can pray this prayer today - far removed from the writer- and it is still true to his character.
"God, of your goodness, give me yourself; you are enough for me, and anything less that I could ask for would not do you full honor. And if I ask anything that is less, I shall always lack something, but in you alone I have everything."
I have prayed these words over and over. I pray them when I am unsure as to what I need. I pray it when I feel like I do not have the energy to make it through the day. I pray this prayer because I know God will answer it and it reminds me that God loves to fill the spaces I open for Him in my life.
This prayer reminds me that what I need most, more than anything else, is God. I need Him more than solutions or answers, more than health, more than material possessions. I need him more than life itself because it is He that gives me breath. It reminds me that I need to lay my "prayer agenda" at the door and simply ask God for what I need most - Him. "Because in you alone I have everything."